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Teach me, O LORD, the way of Your statutes,
And I shall keep it to the end.
Give me understanding, and I shall keep Your law.
Indeed, I shall observe it with my whole heart.
Make me walk in the path of Your commandments,
For I delight in it.
Incline my heart to Your testimonies,
And not to covetousness.
Turn away my eyes from looking at worthless things,
And revive me in Your way.
Establish Your word to your servant,
Who is devoted to fearing You.
Turn away my reproach which I dread,
For Your judgements are good.
Behold, I long for Your precepts;
Revive me in Your righteousness.

Teach me . . . the way. So how does God teach me? I used to wish God would speak to me in an audible voice. I wanted Him to tell me exactly what to do next. “Now it’s time to wash a load of clothes. OK, now you need a a little rest and relaxation. Read that book you got from the library. You’ve read long enough. It’s time to start cooking supper.” Well, I don’t get those kinds of instructions. The teaching God gives is more challenging; He requires me to think and to apply what I read in His word and to follow the example of Christ as I make both large and small decisions about what to do next and how to do it. It’s the same way I teach my children, really. I give them general instructions, but I leave the decisions about how to implement those instructions more and more up to them as they become older and more responsible. I’m aiming for children who know how to take the initiative to do what is right even when I’m not stnding right behind them. Still I make them walk in the path sometimes when they stray. I try to incline their hearts to listen to me and, ultimately, to God. I turn their eyes away from worthless things. I “feed” them God’s word to “revive them in righteousness.”

Give me understanding. ‘Splain, please. Make it clear to me what I should do, and I will do it–with my whole heart.

Make me walk in the path . . . for I delight in it. Isn’t there a contradiction here? If I delighted in God’s path, wouldn’t I walk in it without having to be forced? Well, no. As Paul said, “For what I will to do, that I do not practice; but what I hate, that I do. . . . O wretched man that I am! Who will deliver me from this body of death? I thank God–through Jesus Christ our Lord!” (Romans 7:15b, 24-25)

Incline my heart Tip the scales in the direction of obedience to You, God. I need Your help to even want to do what’s right.

Turn away my eyes from worthless things. “I count all things loss . . . that I may know Him and the power of his resurrection, and the fellowship of His sufferings, being conformed to His death, if, by any means, I may attain to the resurrection from the dead.” (Phillipians 3:8, 10-11) Blogs, worthless. TV and movies, worthless. Books, worthless. Stuff, worthless. If I can’t turn my eyes away from any of them, I am in danger of idolatry. All these things and more are gifts that God gave us to enjoy, but all must assume their proper place in submission to the Lordship of Christ.

Your judgements are good. Do I really believe that God is good all the time? That He knows what He is doing when my friend’s husband dies leaving five children behind to be cared for by a single parent? That He is good and merciful when He allows evil terrorists to murder thousands on September 11 or fifty on July 7? That His judgements are good in allowing children to suffer and die in Sudan and in Zimbabwe and in tsunamis in Asia and in hospitals here in the U.S.? When I see these things and ask why, I need to be revived in righteousness. I need Him to give me understanding.

DALETH

My soul clings to the dust;
Revive me according to Your word.
I have declared my ways, and You answered me;
Teach me Your statutes.
Make me understand the way of your precepts;
So I shall meditate on Your wonderful works.
My soul melts from heaviness;
Strengthen me according to Your word.
Remove from me the way of lying,
And grant me Your law graciously.
I have chosen the way of truth;
Your judgements I have laid before me.
I cling to Your testimonies;
O LORD, do not put me to shame!
I will run the course of Your commandments,
For You shall enlarge my heart.

This whole Christian life is a cooperative effort, only He gets to do most of the work:
I feel like dirt; He revives me.
I declare my intentions; He answers.
I meditate; He makes me understand and teaches me.
I choose the way of truth; He removes the way of lying.
I cling to His testimonies; He keeps me from being put to shame.
I run the course, keep the commandments; He enlarges my heart in order that I may finish the race.

“I have fought the good fight; I have finished the race; I have kept the faith. Now there is in store for me a crown of righteousness, which the Lord, the righteous Judge will give to me on that day, and not only to me but also to all who have loved His appearing.”
II Timothy 4:7-8

Again, I am reminded of how dependent I am on the grace of God. I couldn’t fight or finish or keep the faith apart from Him. And it is fitting the old hymnns picture us “casting our crowns before Him” since any crown that I receive belongs to Him in the first place. (By the way I couldn’t find in Scripture anywhere this idea of our giving back to Jesus whatever reward or gift He has enabled us to earn, but it seems right. After all we offer Him the firstfruits of our labor and the products of our God-given creativity as worship.)
In Him we live and move and have our being. (Acts 17:28)

GIMEL

Deal bountifully with your servant,
That I may live and keep Your word.
Open my eyes, that I may see
Wondrous things from Your law.
I am a stranger in the earth;
Do not hide Your commandments from me.
My soul breaks with longing
For Your judgements at all times.
You rebuke the proud–the cursed
Who stray from Your commandments.
Remove from me reproach and contempt,
For I have kept Your testimonies.
Princes also sit and speak against me,
But Your servant meditates on Your statutes.
Your testimonies also are my delight
And my counselors.

Jesus said many times, “He who has ears to hear, let him hear.” God told Isaiah to say to the people of Israel: “Keep on hearing, but do not understand! Keep on seeing, but do not perceive! Make the heart of this people dull, and their ears heavy, and shut their eyes. Lest they see with their eyes, and hear with their ears, and understand with their heart, and return and be healed.”

I’m an Arminocalvinist myself, firmly on the fence, but as the Calvinists teach, we truly are dependent on the grace of God to open our eyes and deal bountifully with us. His testimonies are not naturally my delight, but I ask Him to make them so. I am just a poor wayfaring stranger; this world is not my home. And if I have no real home here, I am more than ever dependent on the Lord to give me an eternal home with Him.

So I pray that the same Jesus who made the deaf to hear and the blind to see will also give me vision and hearing and make my soul break with longing for His judgements. For ‘in Him is Life, and that Life is the Light of men. And the Light shines in the darkness, and the darkness does not comprehend it.” (John 1:4-5)

BETH

How can a young man cleanse his way?
By taking heed according to Your word.
With my whole heart I have sought you.
Oh, let me not wander from your commandments!
Your word I have hidden in my heart,
That I might not sin against You.
Blessed are You, O LORD!
Teach me Your statutes.
With my lips I have declared
All the judgements of Your mouth.
I have rejoiced in the way of your testimonies,
As much as in all riches.
I will meditate on your precepts,,
And contemplate Your ways.
I will delight myself in your statutes;
I will not forget Your word.

This writer is really concerned about living God’s way. How do I cleanse my way? I wash myself daily, hourly, in God’s Word. I wash everything I read, everything I see, everything I hear, everything I do, in the cleansing Word of God. Specifically, I think about these things that make up my life in the light of Scriptural principles. How does this or that square with what God has said? I hide His word in my heart, memorize it; I declare it with my lips, speak truth in love; I meditate on God’s guidance, and I contemplate His ways. Then I can delight myself in God’s law and not forget His word.

Lest anyone think this joyful discipline of studying and applying God’s Word to our lives is optional, esoteric speculation, WORLD magazine’s blog gives this example of a man who did not cleanse his way:

And now it turns out that convicted child-molester Joseph Duncan, arrested for kidnapping that little girl in Idaho and the suspect in the murder of her family, talks about his struggle with demons on his blog. “God has shown me the right choice,” he wrote, “but my demons have me tied to a spit and the fire has already been lit.” And then, in one of his last entries, “The demons have taken over.”

“He has shown you, O man, what is good;
And what does the Lord require of you
But to do justly,
To love mercy,
And to walk humbly with your God?”
Micah 6:8

ALEPH

Blessed are the undefiled in the way,
Who walk in the way of the LORD!
Blessed are those who keep his testimonies,
Who seek Him with the whole heart!
They also do no iniquity;
They walk in His ways.
You have commanded us
To keep your precepts diligently.
Oh, that my ways were directed
To keep your statutes!
Then I would not be ashamed
When I look into all Your commandments.
I will praise You with uprightness of heart,
When I learn Your righteous judgements.
I will keep your statutes;
Oh, do not forsake me utterly!

We’re studying Psalm 119 in our women’s Bible study this summer. Despite what some people think about small group Bible studies (and by extension, individual Bible study?), I believe in the old “priesthood of the believer” idea and that the Holy Spirit is given to all believers to “guide you into all truth.” (John 16:13) Therefore, we can study the Scriptures under the guidance of the Holy Spirit and expect such study to be “profitable for doctrine, for reproof, for correction, and for in instruction in righteousness.” (2 Timothy 3:16) Discussion at Thinklings blog.

Now that we’ve got that settled, and we’ve all come to a happy concensus :), I’ll return to Psalm 119. First the psalmist writes about how happy and blessed those who obey God’s law are. Then he inserts a verse that states that God has commanded us to obey. Then the psalmist wishes, prays, imagines the results, and finally determines to learn and then keep God’s statutes. Section Aleph ends with another prayer: “Oh, do not forsake me utterly!”

I echo that final prayer. My own prayer has often been, “God, please don’t give up on me.” Grace and repentance are big concepts, but at the very least those terms mean acepting forgiveness and setting my will to “walk in the way of the LORD” and “to do no iniquity”–again and again and again.

The State of Christian Fiction

Phil who blogs at Brandywine Books and at Collected Miscellany sent me an email asking my opinion about Christian fiction in general and Levi’s Will by Dale Cramer in particular. Phil said I should post my reply, and since it’s the only coherent snippet of writing I’ve been able to do in the last couple of days, I will.

Yes, it’s (Levi’s Will) definitely Christian fiction. I don’t think a secular publisher would have published it, but I don’t know that much about the publishing world. I could be mistaken.

I do think Levi’s Will “breaks the mold” to some extent. First of all, it’s a male-centered book without being sci-fi or thriller. The female characters in the book are not well-developed and are not the focus of the book. It’s also Christ-centered without being preachy. It has different kinds of Christians with different understandings of their faith, including a rather legalistic father, a friend who doesn’t attend church but knows and lives the gospel nevertheless, and the main character who lives a life of lies and comes to see how destructive that kind of life can be.

I’ve read three good books so far this year that I would consider “Christian fiction” in the sense that they focus on characters who are struggling to live out some sort of orthodox Christian faith in a fallen world. One was Levi’s WIll; the other two were Peace Like a River by Leif Enger and Gilead by Marilynne Robinson. The publication of the the latter two by secular mainstream publishers (and the Pulitzer Prize for Gilead) indicates to me that those publishers are open to Christian themes and characters in well-written books.

Oh, I forgot Acts of Faith by Philip Caputo. I don’t think a Christian publisher or imprint would have anything to do with that book, but it’s definitely exploring Christian ideals and how those ideals become compromised.

I did read a couple of other fiction books published by Christian publishers this year, and I do know exactly what the complaint is. The plots are thin and kind of boring, and the Christian characters are too good to be true–and too preachy to be very likeable. Or some of the novels are poor imitations of books and genres that were/are popular in the secular world. See this article about “Christian chick-lit.” Although I haven’t read the author featured in the article, I doubt if I would enjoy baptized chick lit since the unbaptized sort doesn’t appeal to me.

Phil is discussing this issue of the state of Christian fiction at Brandywine Books.
Also Dan Edelen at Cerulean Sanctum.
An old post from Jared at Mysterium Tremendum.

Acts of Faith by Phillip Caputo

I just finished this book, written by the same author who wrote a memoir of the Vietnam War that I read twenty years ago for a college class, A Rumor of War. I remember two things about that book: the descriptions of war were vivid, violent, and sometimes nauseating, and the author quit believing in a resurrection because the bodies he saw blown to bits in the course of battle were incapable of being resurrected. (This loss of faith seemed to me then to be unjustified since any God worth believing in would be capable of manipulating matter and energy and life in any way He chose.) In the novel Acts of Faith, set mostly in Kenya and southern Sudan, Caputo continues to explore the contradiction between faith in a good, powerful, and loving God and the reality of evil. Near the beginning of the book, a skeptical reporter tells a naive young evangelical Christian:

“Belief is a virus, and once it gets into you, its first order of business is to preserve itself, and the way it preserves itself is to keep you from having any doubts, and the way it keeps you from doubting is to blind you to the way things really are. Evidence contrary to the belief can be staring you straight in the face, and you won’t see it. No, not stupid. True believers just don’t see things the way they are, because if they did, they wouldn’t be true believers any more.”

The easy way to answer this objection to Christian faith is to say that not all beliefs are equal and that believing in truth is different from believing in a lie. However, what’s harder to do is to admit that there is some truth in the reporter’s words as they apply to Christian believers. I was in a Bible study last Wednesday night, and we were discussing why bad things happen to Christian people (not good people, there are no good people). I could only conclude that I often do not understand why God allows bad things to happen. However, I still believe He is in control because I settled that question a long time ago. One of my favorite Bible verses is Job’s statement of faith: “Though He slay me, yet will I trust in Him.” (Job 13:15a) Another is Peter’s statement in response to Jesus: “You do not want to leave too, do you?” Jesus asked the Twelve.
Simon Peter answered him, “Lord, to whom shall we go? You have the words of eternal life.” (John 6:67-68)

I know enough to believe that I have no choice but to believe. Where else can I go? What other belief even begins to make sense? Even when I don’t understand God’s ways, even when evil seems to be triumphant, I have already made the choice to follow Christ, the choice to trust Him. I don’t ignore evidence that contradicts my belief in a powerful and loving God; I simply know that such evidence is not the whole story. Jesus’s life and death and resurrection are evidence that God does care, that He does understand our suffering, and that He is powerful enough to defeat death and evil in the end.

I’ll have more to say about this book in another post. Caputo has written an excellent story with complex characters, some of whom are evangelical Christians. And he gets the portrayals of Christians and Christian theology right most of the time–with some notable exceptions. This novel of relief workers, Sudanese rebels, gun-running pilots, and Arab Muslim raiders is filled with questions that deserve thoughtful answers or at least careful exploration. I would recommend the book to anyone who is interested in thinking about the complex interaction of good and evil within the human heart, with one caveat: the novel is explicit in its descriptions of both violence and sex. Don’t say I didn’t warn you.

Facing East

Facing East: A Pilgrim’s Journey into the Mysteries of Orthodoxy by Frederica Mathewes-Green is an account of a year, a very liturgical year, in the life of a convert from Episcopalian high church to Eastern Orthodoxy. I remember Mrs. Mathewes-Green from way back. I believe I used to read and enjoy her writing in Christianity Today before she converted to Orthodoxy, a conversion that took place over ten years ago in 1993. She’s a good, engaging writer.

Mrs. Mathewes-Green begins the book with a preface/disclaimer. First of all, she says, she’s no expert on Orthodoxy, not a “church historian, theologian, or liturgical whiz.” Next, she asks forgiveness if in relating her experience in a small Orthodox mission church pastored by her husband, Gary, she has made the Orthodox church as a whole seem less than majestic and dignified and holy. In other words, she wants the book to be read as a sort of memoir, a firsthand account of one woman’s journey into the Orthodox faith, not as an authoritative guide to all you ever wanted to know about the theology and practice of the Eastern Orthodox church. As such a personal account of the world of Orthodoxy, the book is quite successful.

Part of the charm of the book is the author’s honesty and transparency. Mrs. Mathewes-Green admits that it was her husband who was fascinated by Orthodoxy after becoming disillusioned with the increasing apostasy he saw in the Episcopal church. She remembers thinking during an Orthodox service about her feet which were hurting and wondering “why they had pews if you had to stand up all the time.” (It turns out that many Orthodox churches don’t have pews) Everything about Orthodoxy that was appealing to her husband felt strange and difficult to Mrs. Mathewes-Green. The rest of the book is about how she got “past the bare truth part, the aching feet part, to discover the rich, mystical beauty of Orthodoxy.”

I come from a lot farther away than Episcopalianism to discover what beauty and truth there might be in Orthodoxy. I’m Southern Baptist through and through. So there were some obstacles for me in reading about this journey that were mere bumps in the path for the Mathewes-Green family. I still don’t get the icon thing even though the suthor explains what an icon is and why icons are so important to Orthodox Christians about as well as it could be explained to a layperson outside the Orthodox tradition. I also doubt that the divide between “cradle O’s” as the author calls them and recent converts is as easy to bridge as it seems in this book, but again this story is just the experience of one small congregation, not meant to be indicative of all Orthodox churches everywhere. Fianlly, I don’t really see the distinction between venerating or honoring the saints and icons and worshipping the Triune God nor why the former practice is necessary or beneficial. I know it’s very Protestant, but I remain something of an iconoclast. (But I still think some of the icons themselves are quite beautiful and highly artistic.)

In the final analysis, the story is what makes the book absolutely fascinating. The personal details that Mrs. Mathewes-Green includes, such as her college daughter’s flirtation with a nose ring and the author’s grumpiness turned into joy on Pascha (Easter) Sunday, are what makes this book such fun to read. I felt as if I were discovering a wonderful and rich Christian tradition that holds many lessons and truths for all of us, though I would find it difficult to participate in many of the rituals that define Orthodoxy. I especially thought I could learn from the disciplines of fasting and feasting that the Orthodox observe, and I am drawn, as is Eldest Daughter, to the celebration of a liturgy and a liturgical year that places Christ at the center of our days and of our holidays.

The author begins and ends the book by inviting the reader to visit an Orthodox church, participate in the ancient liturgy, “come and learn firsthand what Orthodoxy is.” I feel as if I already have made such a visit and come away with much to think about and process and with new ideas about worship and about the holiness and majesty of our God. If you are at all interested in exploring the strengths of other Christian traditions, I highly recommend Facing East as at least a primer on modern Orthodox faith and practice.

Levi’s Will by W. Dale Cramer

There’s something about the Amish culture and about Amish life that is fascinating to those of us who live outside, Englishers they call us. Perhaps we long for a simpler life and a more tightly knit community while at the same time we know that the rule-keeping and legalism required to maintain such simplicity would chafe and limit our freedom to an unacceptable degree.

Levi’s WIll by W. Dale Cramer is partly about that legalism and about what is gained and what is lost when a young man leaves his Amish home and family to live a life unrestricted by any rules at all other than the ones he makes or chooses for himself. As an Amish teenager, WIll Mullet, the protagonist of the novel, sees hypocrisy, unreasonable laws, and a father, Levi, who can never be pleased. He runs away from home because of one particular incident, but the author implies that Will is disillusioned with Amish life long before the crisis that causes him to leave. The problem, of course, is that Will Mullet leaves behind not only Amish rules and regulations but also his family, his own identity, and the God of his fathers.

The rest of the book is about Will’s life in the far country (Germany during WWII and then Georgia) as he tries to recover family, identity, and God. He begins by taking a new name, Will McGruder, and he becomes more and more entangled in the lies he must tell to keep his past a secret. McGruder joins the army and commits a crime by lying about his age and his name. He lies to the Georgia girl with whom he falls in love because he cannot think how to be Will McGruder and WIll Mullet at the same time. He tries over and over again to reconcile with his father and with his Amish community while at the same time he is losing and alienating his own two sons in the same way his father made him an alien and an outcast.

As in his previous book, Bad Ground, author Cramer explores the themes that have emerged in Christian pop-psychology books such as those of John Eldridge and Gary Smalley, themes of reconciliation between father and son, the blessing that a son needs from his father, and the possibility of finding what one needs from the Heavenly Father when earthly fathers are unable or unwilling to give the grace, mercy, or strength that is necessary for a man to grow into full manhood. The book leaves some questions unanswered. Why do two boys with the same father follow such different paths as adults? How does Will’s father finally get past his traditions and the obedience to the Amish rules that have kept his community safe to forgive WIll and welcome him into the family again? Why does Will’s wife, a strong woman in her own right, stay in a marriage that is based on lies and lived in isolation to some extent? Even these questions, though, indicate that the characters in this novel are intriguing and likeable enough to pull me in and make me want to know even more than the author tells about them.

The book also made me think about legalism and the value of the Law. I’m in a Bible study this summer studying Psalm 119, the psalmist’s poetic tribute to the virtues of God’s Law. As I read through the psalm I read over and over about how the psalmist loves God’s Word, how it is more precious than gold and silver, how it gives security and truth and delight. Many of the Amish surely delight in their laws, which are said to be God’s Law, and which give them safety and community and a foundation. Many more leave the Amish way of life seeing it as a man made structure that is in many ways contrary to God’s Word instead of being in accordance with it. Certainly God’s Word is a joy and a safe haven, but the temptation for fallen human beings is to build up a set of rules that can be kept however difficult the obedience may be, and to call those rules God’s Law. Then, we can justify ourselves instead of depending on the grace and mercy found in Jesus Christ.

Christian fiction in general has come a long way in the past several years, and this book in particular demonstrates that fact. Instead of a hackneyed formula plot in which the main character meets a crisis, prays or gets saved, and then lives happily ever after, Dale Cramer gives the reader full characters, an unpredictable and suspenseful story, a picture of a different cultural milieu, and themes that will speak to any father, any son, or anyone who knows a father and son. I’m really impressed by the “maleness” of the setting and the story in both this book and Cramer’s previous book, and yet as the mother of two sons I enjoyed the story and found it to be thought provoking and particularly applicable to my husband’s relationship to our sons. If the father in your life enjoys fiction, Levi’s Will might make a welcome Father’s Day gift.

The book Levi’s Will by W. Dale Cramer was sent to me from Mind & Media as a gift from Bethany House publishers who donated the books as review copies. If you are interested in receiving review copies of current titles from Christian publishers, you can check out the guidelines for Mind and Media Exclusive Reviewers here.